life's no fun when you're eating burritos...

I'M BORED!

i was swamped with work while studying for finals. additionally, it has taken mucho effort for me not to nose dive into the abyss of lunacy while thinking of all the loose ends of my life, in which i shall soon be entangled. finals ended. i slept. i ate. i watched casino...i sat in front of blank pages of opportunity and did nothing.

i haven't been writing; i should be writing.
i haven't been focused; what should i be focused on?
i should really get it together.
i think i laughed about 73 times in the past 5 months. is that a lot? probably not, right?
i feel like a big, huge....blah.

what am i talking about? im talking about under-stimulation! for the past five months, the highlight of my days has been lunch time; and i love burritos. think that's sad? well, get this:

there are just about 150 days in a 5 month period; that means that there are about 150-207 lunch times in a 5 month period (...some days im VERY hungry...). within the past 5 months, i have only had about 26 burritos. so, just imagine how i feel. smh.

now it's winter...um, definite crisis. i can't stand the cold so cabin fever is surely imminent.

but i know what im going to do. it's time to get organized, get motivated; im tryna get that old thang back!


just a little spill, i'll be back with more sensible things soon lol

Oh, Lawd, Jesus, I'm Sorry!

It's important to maintain and nurture your relationship with God. Talk, pray and meditate with Him. Let Him be your rock, your strength….
your friend?

Have you ever tried to joke around with Jesus like you do with your friends?

Isn't that the scariest ish ever!?

So, just about 15 minutes ago, I was hanging out in my room, straightening up a little and tinkering with my hair; itunes was on shuffle. T.I. was just shouting about someone "finna get hurt, murked [&] put in the dirt"…so I was feeling a *little* rowdy; just a little. [like how you get when "head bussa" comes on in the club--you rock to it just enough to send the message "I phcks with the song...but, by no means do I intend on getting into a head bussin predicament..." ]

Well, shortly following the recently incarcerated king of the south, itunes decided that it was time for gospel hour; I was still feeling the secular vibes that had just barely left my eardrums, but, nonetheless, I'm pro-Jesus so bring it on, Kirk Franklin!

...sometimes Where the Spirit of the Lord is there's just a bit too much liberty…

Kirk asked, "is there anybody here that loves Jesus?" and,--was feeling good, albeit a little smartassy-- "no, Jesus know I don't get down with Him like that," rolled so hastily over my cognitive tongue...

oh. my. Goodness.

the fear of hell and all things unholy instantly flared up in me. I was so scared! I apologized profusely.

Oh no! sorry, Jesus! I was just playin, I didn't mean that, I say that to all my friends!….*silence*…..[what was I thinking saying im not down with Jesus? did He hear me? damn, I know He heard me…but, what do I do?...should I pray?... Is he gonna smite me?? im scared…see, this is what I get for for tryna be too down with the son of God…Jesus is not my peer, why was I trying to act all BFFish with Him?...smh]…

So, I calmed down...me and Jesus had a chat about it. He's assured me that He does, in fact, have a sense of humor. [*Phew*] Still, I explained to Him that despite my inclination to joke at unnecessary and even inappropriate times, I'm very down with Him, but not too down…as down as I can be without being blasphemous. He told me that He knew that…He knows everything about me; especially my heart.

I feel better now. Thanks, Jesus :D